Dear Vicky: it sounds as though your mom, and of course, you and your dad have certainly gone through so much...your mother with the treatments, and you and your dad watching her suffer. It is so difficult to watch someone you love so much suffer.
As a mother myself, and a Hospice Nurse, I was recently diagnosed with kidney cancer. My prognosis is also poor. My options are few. However, until I have exhausted all options, I want to try it all, mainly because I am only 52 years old.
The most important thing is I would not want to suffer, nor have my family see me suffer...But sometimes that is so unavoidable. Your mother has the option of doing one more chemo treatment, however, she also has the option to refuse. She may be doing this for you and may also have had enough. Put yourself in her shoes. Would you want to go through the same suffering as she is now? Yes you are praying for a miracle, the miracle may be that mom does not suffer any more and has no pain, and the equality of her life is good. Her quality of life is what is important now and the time you spend together. Make it good. Sometimes dying is the only option left and if you believe in God...know that God will be there when she does die to welcome her home.
Losing a mother is very difficult and of course, painful. I lost my mother l0 years ago to cancer, and I still miss her very much. However, she also suffered very much and I prayed for her death, because her quality of life no longer was appropriate for her, nor those who loved her. She was only 67. It is important to believe that those we love are as close to us as our hearts, therefore, never far away. Just can't see them, but are always with you. Take heart and pray for the courage to help mom die and you and your father be there for one another. Some day you will meet again. Hang in there, and pray for the miracle of everlasting life for your mother.
My prayers are with your mother and of course, you and your dad. God Bless.