Thx for your kind words. I know my husband does feel for what i am going through to a certain extent and i have tried to explain that its not me personally having a go at him, its just right now im angry at the world for taking someone that i love so much away from me, i wonder how i will cope once we lose her. i know deep down that we lost her at first diagnosis as she was in quite a bad way when it was diagnosed and i feel that although i have my husband and the rest of my family for support that me telling them how i feel just puts more pressure on them to have to listen to my fears and worries. One thing i am glad about ts that at this time she seems to not be in any pain, although she cant really communicate too well with us either. I hate to see her waste away before our eyes with nothing we can do to help her. what is to be expected from here on in? Will she suffer at all? how much more can she deteriorate? we were told 6-12 months with treatment and its been almost 9 months since diagnosis and i dont like to look up too much information on the web becos of being afraid of reading horror stories.