Hi,
My name is Shawna and for the last 3 years I have watched my husband battle 2 different forms of cancer with no remission, things have never really looked good for him and at first I was bitter, but at some point there is a moment when you will realize that you have a choice: to be bitter or better? that is the question.
Now, that sounds really easy, and yet it is not. It is only after you go through the grieving process ( which by the way includes anger) can you begin to process what is going on. I wish I could say to you that this phase will only last for a brief moment, but i cant. It is different for everyone.
You need to understand that you are going through the grieving process, and your husband needs to understand that to, as for your kids just love on them, they are scared to and you are going to be the one that they turn to for answers, apologize to them and tell them that this is what fear can do to you when you let it control you. Which brings me to another point you are scared to death for your loved one, and this fear comes from loss of control , the unknown, and let me just say that this is scarry, but there is a point when yo have to let go and let God, and that just sounds awful, but there is truth in it. we have te realize that there are things that we do not control, and then we have to try and find purpose, again I wish I could say that this will pass in 24 hours, but I cant. Here is the thing about cancer it is personal, not just for the patient but for the family as well, everyone will handle this differently in their own time and way just remember to love one another and choose better not bitter.
I am praying for you
Shawna