Im so sorry to hear of your husband Shawna, i hope that u will eventually get some good news and he will be in remission. The last few days since taking some advice have been a little easier although i still feel angry, i spoke to my brother and he said some very useful things and its these things i have been holding onto instead of thinking in the negative all the time. i know my mum wouldnt want me to be angry and miserable and i know that she would give me a telling off if she could for being the way i have been. we have always been very close and i could go to her with any problem and she would do her best to help me solve it, shes always been like a best friend and we could tell each other anything and now i know we will never have that again, hence me feeling bitter and angry i suppose.
I will continue to read and post on these boards as reading other peoples experiences and advice seems to help and ease the pain a little, hopefully one day i can give advice to someone and feel as though i have repaid the favour ;-)
I will live in hope for each and everyone of u xx