On 1/27/2007 Georgiasbrighteyes wrote:
I have never quite felt so helpless in my life, as I have with my mothers diagnosis of SCLC. She finished her 3 days inpatient receiving chemo. Now she is on her daily injection of neupogen. She has extreme nausea and vomiting... I try anything and everything to get her to eat. She cannot stand anything sweet anymore. Seems that everything sweet is now way too sweet for her. So she has a hard time drinking the Ensure. She can barely get down a half os anything without turning it away. My kitchen, pantry and refridgerator is about the fullest it has ever been! I buy it all! LOL I am just scared that she is giving up. Been monitoring her temperature. She has ran 99.1 all yesterday and today it is up to 99.8 and staying there. I just feel like no matter what I do to help, it doesn't work... or something else comes up to conbat everything that I have done! I am sure I am not alone... just wanted to vent a bit. Thanks for listening...
I hear you. I lost my mom on 10/19/06 and I did everything you are trying to do. First of all...STOP THE ENSURE. It's full of sugar and cancer loves sugar! I would have taken my mom to the ends of the earth to help her (and at times, I did). However, they know when the end is near and she stayed on just for me. I'm an only child with no husband or other family left...now I'm all alone. I miss her terribly...she was my best friend and travel companion. I didn't want to let her go becuase I knew I would be all alone. But if she wants to go, you have to let her. This is what I was told and I got very angry, but she wanted to be with my dad. They both died on 10/19...he on 10/19/01 and she on 10/19/06. If it's her time, you have to let her go. Before she does, take the time to tell her "thank you" and how much you love her. I did that and I'm glad I did. Good luck and take care. I know EXACTLY how you feel.