I lost my daddy today at 8:30 am. and none of us were able to get there before he died and I am so mad at myself that he died alone in a hospital bed surrounded by no family. I live in Ohio and we had that terrrible snow storm last night that dropped over a foot of snow and freezing rain on the area. We got a call at 7:30 in the morning that he wasn't breathing right and his heart was not beating correctly and they wanted to know if we wanted them to give him medicine for the heart and put him on a breathing machine. We told them to alone give him the medicine but no to the breathing machine. By the time we got there he had just passed away moments earlier. I am upset because I feel like he was alone and no one was with him when he died except for nurses and doctors. I am also upset because he had surgery 3 weeks ago and has not waken up since them except just for a few seconds and he didn't know anyone, I never got to say goodbye and I never got to let him know how much I loved him eventhough I spent 10-12 hrs everyday at the hospital with him. Does it ever get easier?? I can't seem to get a handle on this and all I do is cry. What can I do to help????
Daddy
Although I never got to say goodbye, I know you hear my every word. I love you and you will be sadly missed. You are the king in my life and I thank you for everything you did for me. I know you are in heaven waiting for me to join you and I will see you again. I don't know how to go on without you and I can only hope you will give me the strength to move on and keep going everyday. I love you daddy
You little girl
Marie a.k.a. punk