CancerCompass message board discussion started by Sonia_329 on 4/17/2007 http://www.cancercompass.com/message-board/message/all,11382,0.htm Thu, 04 Dec 2008 00:00:00 GMT Thu, 04 Dec 2008 00:00:00 GMT http://backend.userland.com/rss RSS.NET: http://www.rssdotnet.com/ My mom was diagnosed with breast cancer 4 yr ago . last year it was found that she has metastasis in liver at that time i was oversease and pregnent with my daughter. soon i gave birth i went to visit my parents and my father died just before i arrive there. It was a big shock for me. Now yesterday i got a news that her liver cancer didnt respond to chemo and she had a bone scan yesterday which showes metastasis in vertibra. I feel like i am becomeing crezy. I cant imagine my life without my mother. She did so much for us and it was time for us to give her something and she is leaving. That is not right. There will be no one for me to give me a hug and my daughter will never no her grandmother. No one will be waiting for me to come home. No one will call me and ask how me and my daughter is doing. I ask god why some people have to loose everything. I didnt ask for much in my life just wanted everyone to be happy and healthy  but this is what i get. No one will understand how i feel deep inside. I pray to god not to give such pain to anyone in this world. Sonia_329 Tue, 17 Apr 2007 00:00:00 GMT I lost my mother last July in similar metastatic circumstances, though with a different primary. And it sucks big time! I went and bought a F&*K Cancer T-shirt. It made me feel better.But, God doesn't make people die. We are in temporary vessels that aren't meant to last forever. You will miss your Mum and of course you don't want her to go.. Remember though that she has taught you all you need to know to be a success in your life. Because of her you will have the strength to go on and be a good Mum yourself.Go and spend as much time with her as you can. You will catch up with each other later. Your time apart is also temporary. Kilgh Sun, 22 Apr 2007 00:00:00 GMT Thanks for your response. i am trying to go to her as early as possible.But i really feel horrible. Please pray for my mother. She is going to start xeloda from next month i wish that works.I wish no one in this world have the same pain that i am going through. Thanks again sonia  Sonia_329 Sun, 22 Apr 2007 00:00:00 GMT  On 4/22/2007 Sonia_329 wrote:Thanks for your response. i am trying to go to her as early as possible.But i really feel horrible. Please pray for my mother. She is going to start xeloda from next month i wish that works.I wish no one in this world have the same pain that i am going through. Thanks again sonia   Hi, Sonia. Have you try to give your mom an alkalized water ?  I am also from the family with cancer background. My sister died from ovarian cancer at 36 years old. My mom has cervical cancer. My aunt has breast cancer. My grandma died from breast cancer also.  That is enough to be scared. I invested in good water ionizer.  I did purchase an amazing machine  from a website called www.H2OpH.com. I bought the Orion unit because I like the stainless steel look and it has the most options. When I got it my husband tested it being skeptical. They sent a pH test kit and we were very surprised when our water turned yellow which told us that our water was 5.5 pH( very acidic - perfect for cancer to grow). Then when we installed the water ionizer we tested our water again and it was purple which meant a pH of 9.5-10 ( super alkalized).  A number of things did change immediately in my life which was more red in my lips and in the inside of my eyelid (a sign of much better oxygenation in the blood) and I also slept through the night without waking up which I never read about as a benefit but I sure was happy to receive that added blessing. I chose the Jupiter line from www.H2OpH.com because those are the line of water ionizers that Dr Robert Young recommends. First we were looking at the Enagic machines for $3000-4000 but were so excited to find the Jupiter Orion for $1495. We are so happy now and I know that the website I bought my machine on has a l good information on cancer and alkalized water  and a great selection of videos. Go to research link on their website and read for yourself. Don't forget information is empowering and that cancer can't live in alkalized environment!!!!..... They have a powerful article about terminal cancer survivor! Read it. You and your mom will be inspired. He was drinking an alkaline water and also was taking  some immune builders.  There is hope in hopeless situation. While she is still alive don't give up! Fight to the end! Do everything you can and pray! My mom is alive and thriving  after she was diagnosed with cervical cancer , stage 3  16 years ago!!!. Hope it will help. Svetlana Svetlana Tue, 24 Apr 2007 00:00:00 GMT My mom is also dying from Breast Cancer.  I am trying so hard to be strong.  It is so so hard.  Sometimes it feels like because you are an adult you should be able to handle it better.  But I think you always need your mom no matter how old you are.  I also have two daughters that need their Grandma.  So I guess what I am trying to say is that I was so appreciative to read your honest message.  Because those are alot of the feelings I have I just don't get it.  Sometimes and I know it isn't right or fair when I here peoples survivor stories I am happy for them but I am also so said why not my Mom why can't she have a survivor story.  Why is the fight ending for her.   Mom's cancer also spread to her liver and many other locations.  Even though when she was origanaly diagnosed she did everything she was supposed to.  She has hormone recepter positive breast cancer and Her2 positive breast cancer.  It is just really aggressive.  I know god is the one in control and there is a reason for this.  But sometimes it is just so hard.  I am not ready to let go.  It is just so hard to watch her suffer and see all her pain.   I will deffinately be praying for you and your mom.  I will pray for both of you to stay strong. Asp9325 Sat, 02 Jun 2007 00:00:00 GMT