CancerCompass message board discussion started by bullrita on 2/15/2008 http://www.cancercompass.com/message-board/message/all,20985,0.htm Tue, 07 Oct 2008 00:00:00 GMT Tue, 07 Oct 2008 00:00:00 GMT http://backend.userland.com/rss RSS.NET: http://www.rssdotnet.com/ I come to the board again,to find some support ,and just something that can make me understand, why my childrens father died of such an ugly disease,I can understand we all die, but how he died, I don't think I will ever understand! I try not to question why God plans what he does, My childrens father died 3mts. ago,of stage 4 cancer, when we got the news,I lost my mind, It took all of 6mts. to turn my family,upside down, He and I had two beauthiful daughters, and grandson,He is suppose to be here threw it all,I the stomach cancer just ate him away, I don't thnk he should have suffer like that , I am angry, hurt and this has change my little family completely! I feel so different about everything,sometimes i wake up and think its all a bad dream,he suppose  to be here,,then I remember ,he,s gone, i find myseI  talking to him ,not wanting to do alot, I worry I cant be both mom and dad, and realize,no one can ever take his place, i always thought he would be here!! bullrita Fri, 15 Feb 2008 00:00:00 GMT I am so sorry for your loss. I pray that God will help to ease your pain.  God Bless you and keep you in his loving armsRobin robinlbr Tue, 04 Mar 2008 00:00:00 GMT Dear Bullrita,I just lost my husband to stage IV stomach cancer 1 1/2 weeks ago.  I can't believe he is gone.  We have two children and four grandchildren.  He was my best friend.  He was diagnosed in February of 2005 and fought hard for three years almost to the day.  He also wasted away from 215 lbs. to about 130.  Around Christmas I noticed that he had trouble eating again and was getting thinner.  He went in to have a J tube put in for feeding on the 15th of February but got progressively weaker.  I stopped his feeding tube on February 21 and he died at 12:30 a.m. February 22.  I have not dreamed of him but think of him constantly and cry constantly.  I want my best friend back.  The pain of loss is so great it is palpable.  I get through the day knowing I will see him again in heaven.  Until then I keep thinking of happy memories and how great our love was.Take care,Diane Anniedips Wed, 05 Mar 2008 00:00:00 GMT Diane, I am so sorry for your loss. I can't even fathom.  God Bless you and keep you in his loving arms  robinlbr Tue, 11 Mar 2008 00:00:00 GMT  On 3/5/2008 Anniedips wrote:Dear Bullrita,I just lost my husband to stage IV stomach cancer 1 1/2 weeks ago.  I can't believe he is gone.  We have two children and four grandchildren.  He was my best friend.  He was diagnosed in February of 2005 and fought hard for three years almost to the day.  He also wasted away from 215 lbs. to about 130.  Around Christmas I noticed that he had trouble eating again and was getting thinner.  He went in to have a J tube put in for feeding on the 15th of February but got progressively weaker.  I stopped his feeding tube on February 21 and he died at 12:30 a.m. February 22.  I have not dreamed of him but think of him constantly and cry constantly.  I want my best friend back.  The pain of loss is so great it is palpable.  I get through the day knowing I will see him again in heaven.  Until then I keep thinking of happy memories and how great our love was.Take care,DianeThankyou for being there for me, I know you love your husband, just as much as I love mine. I know I will be with him in another time, and you the same, I know he is around and yours also, I look at are girls, and I am so happy , his spirit is in both of them and his blood is still flowing in there veins, you have to do the same, a part of your husband is right with you , threw your children. I will think of you and pray for all of us, our life will never be the same.,but we must never loose faith. bullrita Thu, 10 Apr 2008 00:00:00 GMT