CancerCompass message board discussion started by mikeshan on 3/27/2008 http://www.cancercompass.com/message-board/message/all,22416,0.htm Sat, 11 Oct 2008 00:00:00 GMT Sat, 11 Oct 2008 00:00:00 GMT http://backend.userland.com/rss RSS.NET: http://www.rssdotnet.com/ Today would of been our 9 year anniversary.. Shann I miss you so much one more day would be worth a million dollars   Sweet Dreams Baby.i miss u. No More Medicene No More Pain. I love u always and ForeverMike  mikeshan Thu, 27 Mar 2008 00:00:00 GMT  On 3/27/2008 mikeshan wrote:Today would of been our 9 year anniversary.. Shann I miss you so much one more day would be worth a million dollars   Sweet Dreams Baby.i miss u. No More Medicene No More Pain. I love u always and ForeverMike Mike, your post touched my heart as all of your posts have.  I know how hard it is to watch the one you love suffer thru this terrible disease as my husband still fights it.  I hope that your good memories of your years together and your daughter get you thru this difficult time. ((((((HUGS)))))))))Robin  robinlbr Thu, 27 Mar 2008 00:00:00 GMT Hi Mike - I don't have any profound words for your first anniversary without Shannon.  My family is almost done with all the "firsts" since losing my Dad.  I hope we can find a "new normal" for the years to come.  I just wanted you to know I was thinking about you.  karen Worriedsick Mon, 31 Mar 2008 00:00:00 GMT thanks Robin I was dreading our anniversary day for two weeks before it came. I treated myself to a couple of nice bottle of red wine looked at photos, videos, cried and  laughed. We had a lot of great times together. We talked so much about me moving on in life and i think i am ready. I actually am going out for dinner with a lady next week it will be a little strange as it was when i asked her. I m only 35 but met shann when i was 22 so a little removed from the dinner date thing. My motto is move on in life find hapiness but never forget. I was married to a wonderful lady who loved me as much as I loved her. Bad things happen to good people why I dont know, but Alyssa needs her dad to get out meet people experience life instead of being home alone night after night.  Baby steps and I know I will be good.thanks for the post.Mike mikeshan Sat, 05 Apr 2008 00:00:00 GMT Hi karenYes it was a tough day. Actually it sucked.My mom took alyssa for the night. I know it is not good to be alone by yourself but sometimes you need a couple of good bottles of wine and just your thoughts and feelings. Shann and I talked sooo much about me moving on in life its hard but I am actually going out for dinner with a lady next week( we went to the same highschool in our town shes a couple years older than me) and didnt really know shann but knows my situation. kinda nervous removed from the dinner date thing. 9 years married 13 years together is a long time when your this young.but my motto is Live Life for me and Alyssa causw Dad being at home most nights with a very small social life except dinner with friends and spouses is not good for her or me.  I know i am jumping in quick but life is too short to feel sad at home day after day. I will never ever forget my beautiful wife. We were one building a family. But we all know on this board life is too damn short.take care and thanks for the post.mikey mikeshan Sat, 05 Apr 2008 00:00:00 GMT Hi Mike-You've made it through another first...glad you took the time and space to both laugh and cry.  Good luck with the dinner.  We are still battling and waiting on most recent test results, but at times talk about the what-if's, and dating is one I can't even begin to imagine I would want to explore. Although I'm 51 and a good bit older than you, it still seems young to spend a life alone after 25 years sharing a child, a business, and an enduring love of one another, and I prefer to believe we are beating this.  You have a brave and hearty soul, and a kind and loving heart so I trust good things will come to you and Alyssa again.  May your hearts be open to the beauty and goodness around you.....it's spring, the time for new life and growth. tongrenhealer Sat, 05 Apr 2008 00:00:00 GMT