CancerCompass message board discussion started by rosalee on 3/27/2008 http://www.cancercompass.com/message-board/message/all,22417,0.htm Wed, 09 Jul 2008 00:00:00 GMT Wed, 09 Jul 2008 00:00:00 GMT http://backend.userland.com/rss RSS.NET: http://www.rssdotnet.com/ I hate cancer and I hate what it does.  I lost my very best friend 7 years ago to a very foreign brain cancer.  She was 19 years old and she died 6 months from diagnosis.  Now my Grandmother who is very dear to me is suffering from what started 5 years ago as metastatic renal cell cancer and is now throughout her entire body including  bone, breast, lung and blood cell. She raised me throughout my childhood and is like a mother to me.  It makes me sick to see what the cancer and treatments are doing to her.  We have no idea how much time she has left, only God knows that, but whatever is left is left to sleeping and pain.  She is fully conscience and knows everything that is going on.  She has that look in her eye that has turned to acceptance instead of perseverance. The treatment that she is on makes her so sick and tired.  I hate cancer so much, it is such a destroyer of life.I pray for God's strength for anyone who has any association what-so-ever with cancer and it's terrorizing ways. rosalee Thu, 27 Mar 2008 00:00:00 GMT I hate this cancer beast too and totally understand your thoughts and feelings.  I am a leukemia survivor (childhood) and my Mom spent every weeknight with me in the hospital for four months straight, my Dad worked throughout the week but came every day after work and spent the weekends... I got out and had two years of chemo and thanks to God am okay today.  In October 2007 my Mom was diagnosed with stage IV colon cancer and she died just shy of a year later at the age of only 63, I miss her so very much.  Her last two months were just awful and bedridden and I don't wish it on my worst enemy.  NOW just a few months after losing my Mom we find out Dad has cancer too!  He is only 65 and moved in with me a month ago and started treatment today.  I am stunned this is happening again and so soon since my Mom.  It is so hard and not fair and although you should never doubt God, it does make you wonder.  They say you aren't given more than you can handle, but I so wonder.  I pray so hard this disease will spare my Dad... I can't be parentless this young!I am sorry for you and for all that are going through this.  It really does suck and more than anything it is just so unbearable to watch your loved one suffer! Msmittens Wed, 02 Apr 2008 00:00:00 GMT Hi, Thank you for your response.  I am so sorry for your losses and I will pray for you and your dad. You sound like an incredibly strong person, and I know that even strong people fall, but I pray for God's strength to sustain you and keep you up - you are a survivor, in more ways than one. Peace be with you and your family.  rosalee Sat, 05 Apr 2008 00:00:00 GMT I double dog hate cancer.  My daughter has been fighting since summer 2004....she has osteosarcoma which spread to her lungs.This incidious disease has split my family in half, sent us to the desert, and tortures and taunts every last bit of hope that we hold on to.We are from NJ but after  years of failed treatments we were led to AZ to a natural medical center.  We've been out here for almost 3 months.  It's just crazy and way too hard.  Half my family is here and half back at the Jersey shore. Let's keep praying for each other and pump it a little louder.....Blessings to all of you. craftypants Sat, 05 Apr 2008 00:00:00 GMT