CancerCompass message board discussion started by Susan1130 on 3/31/2008 http://www.cancercompass.com/message-board/message/all,22565,0.htm Thu, 04 Dec 2008 00:00:00 GMT Thu, 04 Dec 2008 00:00:00 GMT http://backend.userland.com/rss RSS.NET: http://www.rssdotnet.com/ Hi, I'm new to this site but taking a leap of faith.My mom died of breast cancer 27 years ago.  I have the genetic mutation.  I had DCIS in my right breast 10 years ago - followed by a lumpectomy and 7 weeks of radiation.  10 years later I have what they thought was DCIS but is early invasive breast cancer.  i had a double mastectomy 3 weeks ago with immediate reconstruction - but i feel like i am totally out of touch with the "real world" whatever that is..I simply dont care.  I'm seeing a therapist but.......  My husband is loving and so supportive and I know i am not giving him what he is giving me.  Has anyone gone through anything like this?  I had a colon resection last year so I can't have chemo and I feel now like this disease will always hang over me.  Susan1130 Mon, 31 Mar 2008 00:00:00 GMT Susan,I felt some of the emotion you are feeling now when I had my bilat mast last May, my daughter was due to graduate that month from college, my son from high school 2 weeks later and my daughter was also set to be married on June 1st. I lived day to day and set little goals for myself each day, then week, then month...while I do not know the tremendous challenges you have faced, mine seemed unsurmountable to me then andI could face them only one day at a time, one smell, one taste, one scene at a time...get all the info you can get both from here, the net, books and call your local community cancer assistance for whatever they can do for you. Mine sent a past patient to me to show me how to do the exercises and talk about life afterwards. She was my first support bridge outside of my family, faith and friends.Try this website, too, there are SO many wonderful women there just reading their past posts made me see I am as normal and wonderful as any of them...we are many...and if you want to talk more please e-mail me any time...--Message edited by CancerCompass staff. For personal protection, email address removed. Consider private reply. Please review CancerCompass Member Guidelines at http://www.cancercompass.com/common/guidelines.html-- ...I'd love to listen if you want me to...http://www.breastcancer.org/community blessings from one warrior to another...Patti  wixy24 Tue, 01 Apr 2008 00:00:00 GMT