CancerCompass message board discussion started by neverclearone on 5/16/2008 http://www.cancercompass.com/message-board/message/all,24097,0.htm Fri, 10 Oct 2008 00:00:00 GMT Fri, 10 Oct 2008 00:00:00 GMT http://backend.userland.com/rss RSS.NET: http://www.rssdotnet.com/ How do I live without her?  My mother lost her battle with the monster GBM yesterday.  She took a turn for the worse last Thursday and yesterday I held her hand and told her everything I could while I watched the light go out of her eyes for the last time.  How do I fill the void? I miss her so much already, I can hardly breathe. neverclearone Fri, 16 May 2008 00:00:00 GMT I am so very sorry for your loss.  I pray that God will help you and your family through this difficult time. Connie  Houston Wife Fri, 16 May 2008 00:00:00 GMT So sorry to hear that your mom is gone.  I know what you are going through.  It was the hardest for me the first few weeks when my mom passed away which is 10 1/2 months ago.  I also felt like I had a hard time breathing.  Just remember she is in a better place and she will always love you.  Just cry as much as you want, get it all out with spouse, friend, or family.   I believe finding other people who have what you experienced helps.  You are not alone.  I didn't think my world could go on without my mom.  I also tell my children often how much my mom loves them and will not be forgotten.  I still cry here and Hope that helps you cope with your loss.  Thereishope Fri, 16 May 2008 00:00:00 GMT God bless you!  While your pain is so new, realize that her's is now over.  I urge you to dwell on the good memories and cherish the time you had together.  There is no magic spell that will help you feel better nor fill the void.  I offer you peace and comfort and all my deepest sympathies. Lorre G Fri, 16 May 2008 00:00:00 GMT I am so sorry for your loss and pain. Give yourself time to heal from this loss and know that your Mom would want you to do so. Again, God's peace and love to you and your family.Kathy kathye Fri, 16 May 2008 00:00:00 GMT I'm sorry to hear of your mothers passing. It can never be easy losing a loved one, especially your mother. I pray and know that God will give you the strength to get through this difficult time. God Bless~ Kindra gr8ful4itall Sat, 17 May 2008 00:00:00 GMT I am sorry for the loss of your dear mother.  Please accept my condolences.  Remember you will be reunited eternally...maybe that can help you get through the day.  It helps me.  Grieve for her but keep happy memories in your heart.  God bless you and your family,Diane Anniedips Sat, 17 May 2008 00:00:00 GMT Thank everyone so much.  I know everyone here understands my pain. I think it still hasn't soaked in and family is still here and will be until Tuesday.  The services are Monday @2:00 pm.  When they are all gone, then I am sure the silence and emptiness will be enormous.  neverclearone Sat, 17 May 2008 00:00:00 GMT I am so sorry!  You were there until the end - cherish those last moments!  No regrets!  Remember the good times & most importantly she now has peace and is a free spirit rid of this horrible monster!  With time, I hope you will smile again with all the memories you have of her and know you have her close to you in your heart (after all, you are in yourself, a part of her!)  ((((hugs))))  Nikki Smilie Sun, 18 May 2008 00:00:00 GMT I'm so sorry for your loss. My eyes fill with tears reading your post, because I know it's only a matter of months before it's me posting about my dad. Be gentle with yourself. There's a time to grieve, and you have to give yourself permission to let it out. There's no path out of grief except right through the middle of it.I'm so sorry. I hope you have many good memories to comfort you when the worst of these feelings have passed.  Hyacinths Sun, 18 May 2008 00:00:00 GMT I am so sorry to hear of your loss.  I know how you are feeling because I lost my mom not too long ago (July 2, 2007).  It was very hard seeing her in the end and what this disease did to her.  I wake up everyday wishing she was here with me still, we lived together until she got sick, I'm 28yrs old.  I talk to her now and then when I'm by myself which helps some but I know she is looking over me so that helps alot. lonelychild Tue, 20 May 2008 00:00:00 GMT I feel your pain so deeply!! I lost my Mom to GBM tumors almost 9 months ago. I too felt like I could not breath - I felt like a zombie and felt like I had the flu all the time. Mom was only 65 and she was the heart, home and ROCK of our family!! She was Mother and Father to all 6 of her children and even some grandchildren. The ache of her passing will never go away. We lost our Matriarch and nothing will ever be the same.However, I have learned that living her legacy is keeping her memory alive and is what helps me wake up each morning! My Mom was my best friend and by far my biggest fan! She went to be with the Lord exactly 9 weeks from diagnosis. This was by the far the most excruciatingly painful experience that we all went through in our entire life and sometimes I don't know how I can go on, but  I find comfort in knowing she is with our Lord and reunited with her loved ones especially her parents! My Mom was also the bravest and most courageous woman I have ever knew and she was the vessel to keep us strong during this difficult journey....She never complained and always thought of others before herself. This is what defined her and this is why her marker says "Always loving; Always loved". We were blessed with taking care of her those last 9 weeks and she was able to take her last breath surrounded by her 6 children, grandchildren and even my Dad whom divorced her 28 years ago came to her bedside. She died within minutes after his arrival. My brother interpreted it best that her six children "walked her home". You see after my Mom entered the hospital last June, she never walked again until she entered God's glory on September 2, 2007. I find peace in knowing where she is and although I feel at times it is unfair that she is not here any longer physically, she will always live within me.........I cry as I write this but I want you to know that you need to surround yourself around people you love and who are willing to listen to anything you have to say and let out the emotions; holding it in will prolong your grief. It is a journey that we all have to go through to get through. I also want to recommend a support group to you, it is called GriefShare. Google it for the website and you can find the closest one to your home. This has really helped me and without this, the love of my family and my faith, I could have not made it this far. I still have a very long way to go, but I am making progress except Mother's Day was hard and all the one year anniversaries are coming up..........I just try to keep celebrating my Mom's life by trying to learn how to go on living without her in this world. She would have wanted this. My heart goes out to you and your family! Sending prayers, love and blessings your way! Vickie VictoriaC Tue, 20 May 2008 00:00:00 GMT