Hi Shemay,
Funny how you mention the misconception of meal replacement shakes/protein Drinks. Our Doctor also recomended meal replacemnet drinks. Following his recomendation my father purchased case full and after trying this drink he immediately threw up and stayed sick for a few days. He refused to have any more of it and just the thought made him sick. Many times our bodies take care of these toxins that should not be entering on their own. Obviously my fathers body was telling him that was bad stuff and must be thrown up and out immediately. You mentioned your being raised on a farm and the pesticides possibly having it's part in the cancers developement. I think of this often. My father sprayed the open fields for years and tended to crops including alfalfa, corn, oats, ect for many years. We live in the central valley 2 hrs from San Fransisco although our surroundings are not high buildings and corporate industries, instead we are surrounded by farm land, dairy farms, fields with crops and open land only a mile away from the river. We have always felt fortunate to have had the opportunity to enjoy the farm land and the slower pace it has to offer. Avoiding the hustle and bustle would save us from the heart attacks, shootings and dangers of the City. Surprise, surprise....we forgot about the chemicals, pesticides, the horrible stale air thta sits in the valley with nowhere to filter out, instead becomes stagnent. Due to the area our water is also stagnent...bad to drink. My father drank well water for years until finally was told firmly that we were not to drink the water that it was horrible and fulll of chemicals. So did bathing in it make a difference? Nobody mentioned bathing in it? Our understanding was not drink internally this liquid!... apparently the frequent daily contact to our bodies and external skin was not harmful. Or was it? possibly?.. who knows? All these questions..what ifs... run through our heads over and over looking desperately for the answers that we will never come to peace with answers. Leaving us only with another puzzle piece lost and without fit in this game of life that CANCER plays with us and those dearest to our hearts. That in which was thought to be a blessing to our lives, has shown now to have been a contribute to this disease. Always thankful to have had meat on the table, raised and cared for. Was this a blessing or perhaps in fact working against us all along. We will never know the direct answers, one can only make guesses and inform ourselves of the disease and the facts that are available to us. oh...and also, live day to day. Some days bad, some good, all depends on how he feels, then I go about accordingly. Amazing how when loved ones are suffering and pained, you too ache with worry and sufferings. We can only pray and hope. God bless you shemay and those that you love around you .
Susana