Maria3512

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• Maria3512 has replied to a post on the message board

  I'm sorry about your father. There isn't much that can be said to help with our grief. I hope they can see us and know how much we miss them and how loved they are. It's hard to talk about my father he's been gone almost 3 months and it's still surreal. I'm so sad that he won't see my daughter grow up but happy that he met her.

  June 01 at 3:58 AM view post

• Maria3512 has replied to a post on the message board

  I'm so so sorry about your sister. I'm glad she went peacefully with her loved ones around her. It's going to be hard to get back to your previous life. It's been 2 1/2 months since my dad passed and I still break down often. I miss him, you will miss your sister and at first will feel so lost because you have had the routine of caring for her for so long. The first few weeks were so hard all I wanted to do was go to...

  June 01 at 3:54 AM view post

• Maria3512 has replied to a post on the message board

  I know how you feel. 5 months ago my father was told he has 3-6 months left. He died on Sunday. I'm 28 years old and although I'm married with a child I have the same thoughts as you do. He will never see my daughter grow up or see other kids that I will have. He won't be there to celebrate her first birthday. I hope that he can still see where ever he is though. I hope his spirit is still with us. The only advice I ...

  March 15, 2012 view post

• Maria3512 has created a new message board discussion

  On March 11th at 5:30 AM my father died after fighting this horrible disease for 5 years. I feel broken, lost, devastated and alone even though i'm not. I think his death has affected me worse then anyone else. My mom and sister are ok but i just cant come to terms with it. I look for him everywhere i ask his spirit to visit me i go to sleep hoping to dream of him. We were so close and i spent every day with him for ...

  March 15, 2012 view discussion

• Maria3512 has replied to a post on the message board

  Irene, thank you. I'm glad we at least found each other. It's been helpful to connect with someone who knew exactly wgat we are going through. I'm heartbroken and can't believe he is gone. The funeral was beautiful and so many people came. I hope he saw how loved he was. Please keep me updated on your sister. You are in my thoughts. Stay strong.

  March 13, 2012 view post

• Maria3512 has replied to a post on the message board

  Hi, thank you for your kind words. My dad fought this horrible disease for so long and he gave it his all. He was a true fighter and wanted to live but Unfortunatly this illness is stronger then any of us. I hope your father recovers and I hope for strength for your family to get though this.

  March 13, 2012 view post

• Maria3512 has replied to a post on the message board

  My dad died this morning. At least he is no longer suffering.

  March 11, 2012 view post

• Maria3512 has replied to a post on the message board

  I'm so so sorry. I hope her pain is able to be managed. Is anyone helping you care for her? My dad has been in hospice for 2 months now and the doctors are amazed that's he's lasted this long since we stopped chemo over 2 months ago. At this point we don't even know if it's spread because once he went into hospice all the tests stopped. He also doesn't speak much just a word here or there. It's hard to get a response...

  March 09, 2012 view post

• Maria3512 has replied to a post on the message board

  I'm a pharmacist. I know about Ativan and at first I myself thought he needed it bc he was so agitated and confused now he mostly sleeps and the Ativan pretty much kept him in a coma. We couldn't even get him to eat or drink bc he wouldn't wake up. He was getting infections 3 times a day. I really think he would rather have a few moments to spend with our family as opposed to just being knocked out all day. These are...

  March 08, 2012 view post

• Maria3512 has replied to a post on the message board

  I'm sorry to hear that. Are you still continuing chemo? You need to stay strong. My dad is more awake then before. Apparently they were keeping him sedated under Ativan so that he wouldn't get up meanwhile his leggs don't work and he's losing movement in one arm. I made them discontinue it. He doesn't talk but understands which is so so hard. I think the cancer left his brain and is just moving through his spine. His...

  March 07, 2012 view post