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• kim55 has replied to a post on the message board

  I still miss him so much.  I need him to comfort and hold me and make me feel safe.  I don't think I will ever feel that way again.  He was my whole life.  I 've loved him since I was 14 years old and was married to him for 38 years.  He was the only one I could trust with my very being.  He understood me and all my quirks.  Now, it's just me. I don't know how in the world I will li...

  May 16 at 1:36 AM view post

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  It's been a little over 2 months since I lost my precious Zeb to GBM.  I started a new job 2 weeks ago, and I'm so thankful for that.  Hopefully it will help me become a little more independent.  I work at a beach resort, and it's very busy, intensive work.  While I'm there I do fine.  As soon as I start driving back to my son's house, (I'm living with him until I can afford my own apartment)...

  April 24 at 10:04 PM view discussion

• kim55 has replied to a post on the message board

  I've just never had pain like this.  I just hurt so much.  I can't believe I'll never see him on this earth again.  It doesn't seem possible.  I loved him more than life itself, and now there's this big void in my life.  I hate this feeling.  If it weren't for my faith, I don't think I could go on.

  April 20 at 10:02 AM view post

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  I lost my beloved husband and life partner from GBM IV on February 20th.  The hole in my heart just seems to grow, it's not getting any easier.  I seem to do ok at a new job, but at night, as soon as I go to bed, the crying starts, and I can't seem to control it.  It just goes on and on.  The pain of missing him is so great that my chest actually hurts and I have heart palpitations.  I miss h...

  April 19 at 10:42 AM view discussion

• kim55 has replied to a post on the message board

  God Bless you Chris, I lost my precious beloved after a 28th month battle on February 20.  He battled this GBM monster for 28 long months with such dignity.  He never complained about anything. His heart was always full of love for his God and me, his wife of 38 years.  I thought I too was more ready than I was.  I miss him so much it physically hurts.  I miss everthing about him.  He j...

  April 14 at 8:59 PM view post

• kim55 has replied to a post on the message board

  Byrd, Your posting sounded like it was written by me.  I had been with my husband since I was 14 years old.  I married him at twenty and our 38th anniversary was last Saturday.   He too was the love of my life.  I adored him and everything about him.  I miss him so much that it physically hurts. I know that he is walking with the angels, and even if given the chance, he would never leave par...

  April 13 at 12:27 PM view post

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  I stopped working right after my husband was diagnosed.  We missed the extra income, but I never wanted to look back and wish I had been there for him.  He passed on Feb. 20, 2013, and I just found another job.  I'm 58 years old so I feel very fortunate to have found a job that I hope to enjoy.  I do have life insurance to help out, but it's not enough to pay rent ( I left my home in NC to move cl...

  April 12 at 10:15 AM view post

• kim55 has replied to a post on the message board

  I know our pain will lessen, but when will that day come?  I miss him so much it physically hurts.  I know you understand that. Zeb was my whole world.  It hardly seems possible that he is no longer in this world.

  April 11 at 10:30 AM view post

• kim55 has created a new message board discussion

  I lost my best friend, and the love of my life on Feb. 20, 2013.  I haven't had the heart to write on this website for awhile.  Zeb died after a 28 month battle with GBM IV.  He never had a headache, or any other type of pain.  In that we were so lucky.  I just miss him so much, that I physically ache.  Our 38th wedding anniversary was April 6th, and his 59th birthday is April 16th. &nbs...

  April 10 at 9:53 PM view discussion

• kim55 has created a new message board discussion

  THis is my 3rd Thanksgiving with my husband of 38 years who has had a GBM IV for 25 months.  While I am so thankful for all the miracles that God has provided me with, holidays with this disease are the pits.  My husband Zeb is 58 years old and after 22 months had to be put in a nursing home, because I could no longer take care for him at home.  My children and I decided he needed a team to g...

  November 22 at 8:08 PM view discussion