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Yes, My husband had stage 4 cancer, we were told by our Drs here in CO to go home and make funeral plans.....NO WAY, called CTCA and we were there in 4 days.....THEY gave us HOPE and COURAGE to see this thing through.....they were very honest, forthright and fought with us till the very end. My husband used to say that he dreaded going down for the chemo but CTCA was the only place we adopted a family of physicians, new friendships, love and hope. Once there we dreaded coming back home....they understand and so do the others going through their fight with cancer. GO

Dear eastwest; Read your post this evening. I never looked at it the way you put it into perpective about the prisoners keeping tallies.....yes I too mark each day on the calendar over 400 days now....cant believe because it still feels like yesterday. And the memories really dont fade, each dr visit, surgery, etc plus all the holidays and special days are tied in between. Someone told me the other day that the 23rd Psalm was for those who still live not for the dying...I read it and re-read it....yes I do think that it was intended for those of us left to face the reality of death and loss. Sincerely Cindy

Today it is with much sadness in my heart to have to say good bye to another dear friend that has lost his battle with cancer. He was a fighter, had much courage and gave us all strength and laughter inspite of the odds......My heart goes out to his dear family and beloved wife of over 20 years....we became the best of friends and became a family during the trial of this disease.....sadly he is the last of our extended family to fight the fight. Some day CANCER will find it place in the pit of hell!

What cancer cannot steal is the gift of friendship, caring for each other, loving each other and a lifetime in Heaven with our Lord and Savior.

Until we meet again, May God give us Grace and the Strength to walk each day in his mercy.

Jackie and all of us who share your pain. You couldnt have said it any better....thank you for expressing your feelings as that is exactly how I feel each and every day. This is the 1st year without George, last was a blur as he died on December 23rd. May God grant us peace and grace.

Cindy

Dear Angel1959; There is no fighting the tears and emotions. I was also married to my soul mate for 31 years. He passed away 12-23-11. And it is getting harder each day that Christmas gets closer. I have been in a blur this entire year and have often asked many on this site if and when it gets better....each person is different but the pain we all share is the same. Our hearts are broken/shattered and it takes time to put the pieces back together. Only the pieces that we want to come together again will never be the same.....I too know that my husband wouldnt want me to feel this way but I also know that it if I had died he would have been just as lost without me as I am without him. So go ahead and cry, pray to God and just ask him to give you the strength to make it thru the day. One day at a time, I cant look beyond that and for me that is enough for now. My heart is with you and your family. Someday soon I pray we will all be together again.

Dear Brishan; first of all do not be scared....you need to tell your parents everything you are feeling. Dont jump to conclusions, see a Dr. please.

Cindy

Dear wife, dont beat yourself up...this is a good place to vent....we have all gone thru this in some form or another and this is the place...we hear you and feel your frustration....please dont quit. You know that you will be there till the end, for better or worse, love will keep you strong. Pray to Jesus for strength and we will pray for you. Godd bless you dearest wife.

I cant think much these days as the holidays creep closer....I lost the love of my life on December 23rd 2011....I look back at this year and really dont recall much of anything....it has been such a blur. I truly believe that if you ever have the blessing of finding your soul mate and true love....you will never part. I pray that all of us who are going through this have peace in their heart and grace from God. Someday we will all be together in his kingdom, no more tears, no more sorrow, no more pain.

Dear Suzanne; I too lost my husband and soul mate last year on 12-23-2011. We were very blessed that our two sons were there to walk with him on his journey.....his cancer had also spread to his brain, we found out the horrible news on 12-16-2011....they gave him two weeks, but God wanted him sooner. We had 6 months to prepare for that day..but there isnt enough words, treatments, etcc to ever prepare you for the end. I miss him more every day and this Christmas is very hard as it is the 1st....last year was a blur....funeral, shock, etc. Take care and may the sun shine upon you and your family to warm your heart. Sincerely Cindy

Dear Broken; I thank you for sharing...I dream as well and yes George is there....sometimes I feel as if I am losing my mind but when others such as you share their emotions and feelings it helps to know that I am just as normal as everyone/anyone who has lost their life, love, and soul mate.