Colon Cancer

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Colon Cancer

by mydaughtertina on Fri Aug 25, 2017 10:22 PM

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I was on this site after my beautiful daughter passed away, May 30, 2013. Tina had colon cancer which metastasized in her liver. Her husband and I were her care takers. My Tina was only 40 when we lost her. I have never recovered, I work with my family doctor, a NP, and grief counselor. I just cannot come to terms with losing my daughter. My granddaughter was 18 when her mom passed, she quit college and drinks her life away every day, she will not dicuss her mom. My son in law remarried, but my granddaughter and I are broken forever. I was bad enough with Tina passing, but how she passed is so devastating. Since the cancer went into her liver in the end she bled to death, we were emptying bed pans of blood, she went blind due to lack of oxygen to her brain. She died a terrible death and my God she didn't derserve what she went through. I keep seeing over and over her suffering and I cannot see past that trauma to remember my daughter when she was well. I am told I have PTSD, I still cry every day, just stare at the wall or TV, and cannot accept what has happened to my daughter. I met some really great people on this site, it is a great place to be be when you can hardly talk about it or even breathe. My poor granddaughter barely talks to anyone now, so young to lose your mom when it is the most important time of her life, I don't know if I will get her back again either, she just cannot accept this and she was holding her mother's hand when Tina took her last breath, she had to graduate HS without her mom as well. I don't need any guidance because I am getting medical help still - 4 years later. This cancer is a ride to hell and the suffering of your loved one destroys your life as well. Show your love every day to your loved one who is dying, my daughter wouldn't even talk about it, but I never left her side, and I still haven't. God Bless. Brenda

RE: Colon Cancer

by Jules775 on Wed Sep 27, 2017 07:57 PM

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I am so sorry Brenda. I cannot imagine your pain. You daughter is my age! 

In time and with God's comfort, somehow you will get through it. 

Can you share what symptoms your daughter had prior to diagnosis?

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