Depression

17 Posts | Page(s): 1 2  Next 

Depression

by Jackie3769 on Sun Nov 05, 2017 12:27 PM

Quote | Reply
I was diagnosed with stage 2-3 tonsil cancer on the 37th anniversary of my daughter’s death on October 24th. My father died on October 30th. Monday I find out if I have cancer in more than one place. Tuesday I have a dentist appointment. The possible loss of all my teeth and other cancers are giving me thoughts of suicice. Or at least, forgetting about treatment and just letting this f**ki*ng disease consume me. Sorry for such negativity, I just don’t know who else to talk to. I haven’t told my children or family yet. My husband is supportive, but he doesn’t get this... I don’t know if I have what it takes to get through this. Has anyone else had these thoughts? Thanks J

RE: Depression

by CaregiverPete on Mon Nov 06, 2017 03:34 AM

Quote | Reply

Jackie I hear your pain.

Suicide shouldn't be an option. 

You have to utilize every medical treatment possible. Get your family involved, surround yourself with as much support as possible. Support groups and counseling work wonders. 

Your going to feel like there's no hope. There is hope. Cancer treatments are improving by the day. More and more people are living life to its fullest. You have to try to beat this f**ki*g disease first. Let cancer die by giving it treatments to consume. You have what it takes to get through this. Months or a year from now the cancer could/will be gone. 

Your last and final option should be to quit. Try everything and anything for your children , for your husband,  and for you. They love you.... Don't let cancer take you away being a loving mother and wife. 

Be a fighter Jackie. 

Be a survivor Jackie.

Be both.... Jackie.

RE: Depression

by Jackie3769 on Mon Nov 06, 2017 12:27 PM

Quote | Reply
Thanks Pete. This is going to be a long road. Today is d-day. Thanks for your kind words. I’m praying for the most positive news. You are right, it’s just hard to get my head around this. Today I’ll know just what I’m in for. Tonight I’ll tell start telling my children. There’s just such a huge sense that I’ve let everyone down. I will be knocking them all for a loop. I hate this.

RE: Depression

by CaregiverPete on Tue Nov 07, 2017 12:37 PM

Quote | Reply

Morning Jackie.

I'm hoping that the cancer discussion with your children, as hard as it was, went the best it could. 

Try not to think that you let anyone down. You didn't Jackie. Your still going to be an incredibly loving/caring mother and wife.

The only person you can let down.... is yourself. I know with all the love and support you'll be getting, you won't let that happen. 

Stay positive 

Stay strong 

Beat this Jackie.....

RE: Depression

by Jackie3769 on Tue Nov 07, 2017 10:42 PM

Quote | Reply
hi Pete, I told the girls last night. It was a huge releif. 2 down and 2 more to go. I also got good news that the PET scan showed a better scenario than originally thought. PLUS I get to keep all my teeth. I am tired...but getting more relaxed. This is just hard to accept. THanks, Jackie

RE: Depression

by overtime on Wed Nov 08, 2017 02:40 AM

Quote | Reply

Jackie

Way to go!! Your journey has started, you told some of your family members. Your husband will come around as well. Cancer is a strong word, and most people are afraid of it. He will love you as always, and your children will also. You are the same person, nothing changes with that. Your body may change and sometimes (well, I can't lie) your attitude will as well. LOL!!! 

Let others help you and support you; this is not something you can do on your own. It is very hard to accept, but research is showing that people are being stronger, they are taking the responsibility to find the best treatments, but most of all taking care of themselves first. 

You will get through this. Already the PET scan showed good news, that is a big plus. 

Take care

Overtime

RE: Depression

by overtime on Wed Nov 08, 2017 02:44 AM

Quote | Reply

Jackie

I forgot to tell you that if you are feeling depressed, find a counselor, spiritual person or a helpline you can call when you need someone to talk with. There are a lot of helplines out there for that. Even if you don't use the helpline, have the number ready in case you do. 

Also keep in contact with this site, always someone willing to listen.

Cheers

RE: Depression

by CaregiverPete on Wed Nov 08, 2017 12:46 PM

Quote | Reply

Good morning Jackie

You made a 5 star positive post!

?The talk with your two children went well. 

?Your PET scan results were a positive

?You'll be showing off a pearly white smile for picture taking during the up coming holidays. 

?Your relaxed! 

And most importantly....

?Your not as depressed as you were last Sunday.

I'm very happy for you Jackie,  be well today, and look forward to tomorrow. 

Pete.

RE: Depression

by CaregiverPete on Wed Nov 08, 2017 12:50 PM

Quote | Reply

^ the  ? marks were supposed to be little stars. 

Computer glitch by CC .....sorry about that Jackie. 

Just imagine little stars instead of question marks. 

RE: Depression

by Jackie3769 on Thu Nov 09, 2017 01:47 AM

Quote | Reply
Thanks Pete, I had the ‘mask’ session today. Cried a lot of the way through it. I still just can’t believe this is happening to me... Heard I will be getting 200 rads for 8 weeks. Not sure what to make of that. Chemo is still a question mark. I should know next week at the latest. Tomorrow is the first day I don’t have to go to town - a 1 hr drive. I will be trying to meditate, relax, freeze my tomatoes that have been waiting on me. I feel this is supposed to change me somehow, just not sure how. Will I be wiser? Will I empart more grace? Will I suddenly download spiritual information? I don’t know. I’m tired. Tired from grieving over my father’s death and my diagnosis. My first radiation date is on the 22nd. I am fattening up. I hope to download some energy and positivity before then. It will happen. All kids should be home this weekend. Thanks, Jackie
17 Posts | Page(s): 1 2  Next 
Subscribe to this message board discussion

Latest Messages

View More

We care about your feedback. Let us know how we can improve your CancerCompass experience.