My love has passed away 06/01/2012

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RE: My love has passed away 06/01/2012

by des12 on Wed Jan 16, 2013 09:21 PM

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Sorry I saw your post today,here it is January already. I still wander, moved again last Friday, wehat a screwed up life I've been living. If you can call it living. Nothing is the same, I cry on and off, some days not as deeply as I did, but the loss is still too great.

Mary

RE: My love has passed away 06/01/2012

by Paminnewbury on Thu Jan 17, 2013 12:03 AM

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My heart breaks very day for us both I have to move out and sort out all his stuff wish you were here to smack my face and tell me to sort it out silly bitch that I am xxxx

RE: My love has passed away 06/01/2012

by Paminnewbury on Thu Jan 17, 2013 12:51 AM

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REALY wish you were here my e mail is. Com please get in touch xx

RE: My love has passed away 06/01/2012

by judys909 on Thu Jan 17, 2013 12:52 AM

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I understand, moving on is hard, It's more comfortable where we are. I'm still dealing with change of all the business stuff. I can not imagine how you feel having to move. My daughter has moved in with her children in Dec. Nice to have people around. She lost her roomate to ovarian cancer in Nov. I hope you have friends or family around. My sister and I boed up all my husbands stuff and it still in bags stored. I still cry when I see things of his. You are strong you will get past this. You will be in a new place and it may be better without the constant reminder. We can not change the past only how we move forword. I wish I could be there for support. We have a new life now nothing going to change that fact. I pray that you can move forward with grace and faith that only time will keep you apart.

God bless,keep in touch.

RE: My love has passed away 06/01/2012

by Paminnewbury on Thu Jan 17, 2013 01:13 AM

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Thank you for that I'm so sad just now I will keep in touch xxxxx

RE: My love has passed away 06/01/2012

by sguerra47 on Thu Jan 17, 2013 01:18 AM

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Its the same for me.  Its 16 weeks today and I am miserable.  I just keep asking why, why did I have to lose Ron so soon, so young.  I cry, I haven't been leaving the house much.   So heart-broken.   I have gone through some things and taken some stuff to good will but not much really, just things I knew had no memory or worth.   I am sorry for you, sorry for me, all of us who have had to endure such a loss. I don't know when it will get better.

Love Sandy

RE: My love has passed away 06/01/2012

by des12 on Thu Jan 17, 2013 04:16 PM

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I know Pam, my boys kept saying they would come and pack his stuff and looking around at everything was the exact same way he left it whwen I took him to the hospital for fluids and he never came out. I wasn't even strong enough to go around the other side of the bed and take the tv tray with his glass on it. Then it started hurting worse so I got mad,I think about 6 weeks later, can't really remember and grabbed everything and boxed it and donated it to his favorite charity.

I was saying to myself, "You're not coming back." I wish we were closer too Pam, but I think you know it probably wouldn't help much.The pain has to work it's way out, so they tell me.

I think about the Newtown tragedy and it reminds me that this world is filled with sadness. I live where the 4 firemen and police were killed on X Mas Eve too and 2 are now widows.

I guess we all had it so good and thought it would be forever. Knew in my mind it wouldn't be, but couldn't imagine it any other way.

I find myself praying that the next few yrs fly by so I can be with him again. That consumes me it seems. :((

Today is Richard's birthday and I left a balloon at the cemetery yesterday and mumbled why am I visiting you here?

I look 20 yrs older already, I guess your life does show on your face.

Enough said,

God Bless all of us,

Mary

RE: My love has passed away 06/01/2012

by sguerra47 on Thu Jan 17, 2013 05:00 PM

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I am sorry but I understand.   I too wish the next few years would fly by so I can be with Ron.  

I pray for all of us.

Love Sandy

RE: My love has passed away 06/01/2012

by blujonny on Thu Jan 17, 2013 09:24 PM

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How long were you with your husband Des if you don't mind me asking? It sounds like it was long enough to form a lifetime bond.

RE: My love has passed away 06/01/2012

by sguerra47 on Thu Jan 17, 2013 09:30 PM

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Yes 47 years - 6 children.  He was my world.

 

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