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Two Years Today

by BAILY on Thu May 14, 2015 04:09 PM

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My husband passed two years today,it was the hardest day in my life. He was hit from behind, broke his neck c2 -c3 then kidneydamage.Andthen right on to cancer. no let up for for over two years.I had a wonderful 25 year marriage  to a great man.I was blessed.!!!! We lived in F,l alone for over 20 yrs. I have one daughter and were were not close for years so I felt so alone .i started dating in about 7 monthsafter he was gone. I was so alone .I met a wonderful man he is not my husband but alot like him in many way's. I am in this now but if I had to do it over again I would have waited to date give myself the time to heal find out who I was as a person on my own .I feel I cheated myself and him I know I could not find a better person to share my life with .I only hope THIS WORKS for the rest of our life's I never would want to hurt him but I also don't want to hurt myself. I guess the lord will guide me in the right direction .I am happy with him we like the same things we enjoy each others company .I just wish I waited a bit longer to find me alone .I know I never find Larry again but to find someone a lot like him was good but they say you attract people like yourself so I believe this to be true .Today is my day to remember the love of my life .All the good times and hard time in our life that made us a great couple together . Larry you our missed today and everyday .Larry when I hear a song see a bird go to walk over at disney as we did so many time you our in my heart and thoughts .Larry you our missed i will see you when my time comes. I cant wait to hold you again to feel your love surround me i really miss you lar  I will love you until the day I die. I at time dont like to think of you due to I cant stop the tears from falling the pain in my heart hurts so bad  .I love you larry and miss you .Please look down on me today and smile as I try to survive in my life without you .God Larry I really miss you 


RE: Two Years Today

by eastwest on Tue May 19, 2015 02:53 PM

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Hi Baily  I was widowed about a year and a half when I started to do "meet and greets" and then a few dates. I had it somewhere in the back of mind that the companion I might find would be a lot like Phil. ie: quiet,a fisherman, kayaker. The man who has been in my life the past year (I am widowed 4 yrs) is outgoing, doesn't fish or kayak and is a musician.

At times I think we can't help but make some comparisons. My Phil definitely would probably never have met Hank because of the different circles they traveled. Hank is widowed also and he says his Mary and I are only alike in the kindness we show to others.

This is a different life we lead now. I know I am a different woman from when Phil and I first married back in 1970. We sort of grew from two vines into one almost reading each other's mind. Now it's learning another person's likes and dislikes in life.

I will always love and miss my dear Phil. Not a day goes by when I don't feel grateful for the years and love we had. Yet I am now grateful for being able to share adventures like mini golf and drives to nowhere with another person and learning to play my ukuleles too.   Irene 

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