Dreading the Holidays

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RE: Dreading the Holidays

by katbaran on Sun Nov 22, 2015 12:03 AM

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Another Chuck and Kathy couple! We were too. Seems like we were Chuck and Kathy forever. It was not long enough. '

Kathy

RE: Dreading the Holidays

by katbaran on Sun Nov 22, 2015 08:27 PM

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Ok, I think I got my thoughts together since yesterday and am ready to make a real comment.

I lost Chuck in Aug. '14. A month or two after that, I was in such pain with a back problem that I quit walking. It took until March of '15 to get a diagnosis and have surgery in April. I am still recovering after 3 seperate procedures in one operation. The first and second Halloweens were hard. I closed my drapes and did not participate. We used to really do it up. Decorating, candy, jello shots for the adults, drinking with the neighborhood, we even had a tree that snarled and growled at the kids! (hubby in black shaking the tree and providing sound effects) Next year, when I'm getting around better, I intend to continue, minus the tree of course.

Last Christmas, I was in acute orthopedic rehab in the hospital from Dec. 6th to Jan.5th. It didn't even feel like the holidays, so it didn't hit me hard. This year, I'm getting my sorry butt on a plane and going to spend the holidays with my son and his family in Arizona. It will not ever be the same again, but I'm starting new traditions with what I have. I might not go every year, but I know that most I will. My husband's dearest wish was to fight and be here to watch our granddaughter grow up. She was just turned two when he passed. I will now vow to do that. I know that he is in Heaven and will be watching her from there, but I also want him to see the joy I will have spending time with her. Sort of along with him.

Now is the time to make changes to your celebrations. Now is the time to do things the way you might have wanted to but were stuck in a rut. Cook whatever you want to for yourself. Buy yourself something totally YOU for Christmas and don't care what others think. Rather than focusing on the part about him being gone, focus on the time you had with him. 44 years of birthdays is quite an accomplishment that you were together so long! You (and I--33 yrs married and we met 6 yrs before that) are so lucky to have had a lifetime of love with them!!! Don't be afraid to still cry and to grieve, but don't get bogged down in it. You still have your life to live and it will take a while to figure out who you are now without him, without being part of a couple. I'm still not sure and it has been over a year. It takes time and thought.

I wish the best for you and peace for the holidays.

Kathy

RE: Dreading the Holidays

by eternalife on Mon Nov 23, 2015 07:30 PM

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Yes Clint... without the grace we have been given, we have nothing... God will never foresake us... we are mere humans.

In him all things are possible. Mark 10 :27

He is my light and saviour.

Keep Christ in Christmas, yesterday was the feast of Christ the King.. he is our one and only king.

Take and keep the faith and you/ anyone will never go wrong.

RE: Dreading the Holidays

by Kjohnchas on Tue Nov 24, 2015 02:38 AM

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thank you clint////////// i do remeber your story.just not the naked part lol.you are such a blessig always clint.thank you.......kathy

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