scared of die ing

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scared of die ing

by dizzoo on Tue Dec 13, 2016 09:30 PM

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Treatment has been over since May.  No Lukemia in my system.  I was diagnosed 2015 on Xmas day.  I'm so afraid of it coming back and die ing.  How do you get it off your mind?  When do you start trusting it's ok?

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by PopPop on Wed Dec 14, 2016 01:42 AM

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Dizzoo,

I am glad to read that you have no Leukemia in your system and you are done with treatments. Your question is a good one and will more than likely result in many different answers.

We tend to look over our shoulders a lot right after treatments end. As we go thru our recovery and each scan we get with an all clear puts us at ease more. Will we really ever forget what we have been thru?

Hopefully as time passes, we think more about Living than about Dying. The time frame for this to happen to you varies as much as there are people on this site. Each of us recovered from our Surgery and Treatments at different lengths of time, so we heal mentally the same way, at different times. 

I hope you will slowly stop looking over your shoulder and focus on looking forward more in the future. 

My Best to You and Everyone Here

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by cranky on Fri Dec 23, 2016 06:48 PM

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On Dec 13, 2016 9:30 PM dizzoo wrote:

Treatment has been over since May.  No Lukemia in my system.  I was diagnosed 2015 on Xmas day.  I'm so afraid of it coming back and die ing.  How do you get it off your mind?  When do you start trusting it's ok?

Wonderful! TAKING ONE DAY AT A TIME.

Dizzo,You have came a long way,a year ago you did not know if you were going to make it. WOW!you have made steps to recovery.Think positive! to keep mind in positive mode. How? You are still alive,take advantage of every breath.Thank Almiighty God! The Bible says at Psaims 65:2 "God hears prayers" Also note John16:23 it states  when said,thru Jesus Chris's name God hears. Also read the Gospel accounts about Jesus,Matthew Mark ,Luke,John. God use doctors to help us. Luke was a doctor,he was one of Jesus disciples.When we focus our attention on the positives in life.Then you begin to take each day as it comes. AGAIN! In reailty we must take each day at a time, not trusting in our selves Above all reading the bible daily,is a way of building trust in God pouring your heart out to him. Do not give UP !!  

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by bobspez on Fri Dec 23, 2016 07:29 PM

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On Dec 13, 2016 9:30 PM dizzoo wrote:

Treatment has been over since May.  No Lukemia in my system.  I was diagnosed 2015 on Xmas day.  I'm so afraid of it coming back and die ing.  How do you get it off your mind?  When do you start trusting it's ok?

dizzo, the truth is no one knows how long they will live, so it's best not to think of it or speculate. Many on the forum have said don't let your doctor give you an expiration date. But the expiration date will come, sooner or later, for everyone, not just those with cancer. We all do the best we can. It's best to concentrate on what we have to do today and maybe this week. It's not likely we won't survive this week. 

Bob

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by survivorliver on Mon Jun 11, 2018 05:35 AM

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I just recieved my NED. in May. I have been told just keep getting 6 mo check ups, one day Dr will say 1 yr, then every couple of years, and at 5 yrs everyone agrees you are ok. I have heard that during your cancer battle you develope cancer antibodies, but I am not a DR, don't know if there is such a thing. Go out and have a big bang celebration with friends and cake and balloons that say CONGRATULATIONS and let it really sink into your mind, body, and soul that you really really beat cancer, I requested it in writing from my Dr and got to giggle at having an unremarkable liver after almost dying from liver cancer.  

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by survivorliver on Mon Sep 17, 2018 10:57 AM

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Update. I am NED as of May. I was working when I got my NED, I had just been hired about two weeks before my NED. I started feeling like I was still on chemo and so tired. I had to quit job and just sleep for 4 months. I was scared to death my cancer was back. I am looking better, the white glaze around me is receeding and I am looking almost normal. I stayed up all night for the first time without feeling "loose" or "tight" or hurt. I think its gonna be alright, I think I did beat cancer and I think I am going to live. I am moving on Sunday to live with my Neice now that I know I won't die on my friends or family.

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by Anadabijou on Mon Sep 17, 2018 11:27 AM

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When I died from & during my Whipple, I remember praying to Michael & Jesus to protect me, my Soul...no matter the outcome of my 10 hour surgery, I placed complete trust in my perception of an Almighty, loving creator, AllFather who watches over his little ones with complete Love and compassion.

"Along the Road, your steps may stumble, a Pilgrim's faith may fail, but through it all a heart held humble, levels and lights the Trail." - Dan Fogelberg

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